So the CBEST went really well… I think.
No it did I know it!
I just wish:
A. There had been more time
B. There was a 15min break
C. The woman administering the test had spoken better English.
















8:25 am Tuesday

How much longer can this go on?
How much longer can I keep going on like it doesn’t hurt?
I'm tired of the medication that doesn’t seem to work,
I'm tired of being scared to come to work.
How long can I keep pretending that I'm okay, that it doesn’t bother me?
At this point it hurts just to acknowledge my skin…. My existence.

ITs official!

My CBEST test date is 6/17/06!So excited. I hate tests but its one step closer to me getting out of sales and into an equally thankless job that has summers off! At least this way I can go to grad school sometime maybe even while I’m working. It’s the first in a series of many many steps its going to take to get me where I need to be, so that maybe I can be teaching this time next year. From those of you with you credentials and such give me a holler and let me know what to expect! Thank you friends!

I am hungry.....

I'm done working for the day, but oddly my workday is not over.
What do you think about that. I've been reading up on the the CBEST and am
Scared a little bit. However my friend Seneca at work has told me ,"its so easy, that if you don't pass it the first time you take it, you should die, painfully." All right not that drastic but she did say it was easy. Big secret: I can't do math. Yeah I can add and subtract, and even divide and multiply. but NOMINALS? what the fuck is that nonsense? Maybe that wont be on there? Right ... right? I need to take it before i can even apply for sfsu. I'm a little tired today. Haven't been sleeping well. Nightmares. Ever wish you could drill the memories out of your head? yeah that’s extreme I know, but I’m desperate.

I’m hungry:
What will it be tonight?
Amy’s burrito?
Quorn “meatless” “chicken” thing?
Garden burger “Mcrib” yeah I think that one.