this is what it sounds like......

how can I have any doubt?
but how can I have any faith?
you can't just pack up your Cynical attitude when it
suits someone else.... that isn't being true to yourself...
but what the fuck am I saying?
Have i ever been true to myself?
can I ever be really happy?
I wish people knew that I didn't begin to
hate myself out of spite for... myself.
I know what love is.
maybe I'm just like my mother...
she's never satisfied....
(I had too I've heard it 5 times in the last two weeks!
Coincidence? I think not!!!!)
but really now.
Maybe I've been so busy fucking losers for the last four years
I wouldn't know the "one" until he "bit" me on my ass.
so come on
make with the pain because obviously I'm blind.
I'm sorry.