sorry to the three of you who read my pathetic rantings but I've been too fucking busy to write. But in better light: I don't care anymore.... no seriously it took me 22 years nine months and sixteen days to finally learn to not give a shit! Someone I became very attached to blew me off... at first it hurt... badly but then once I stopped dwelling on it and concentrating on my work I didn't care anymore! she tried to say something about "talking" but you know it sounded real weak and forced so I said whatever.... and ment it. Its cool if we do... Its cool if we don't. Fucking A I'm an adult! woo hoo! Oh and then in Eric's fucking print makeing class I was trying to talk to some chick about our Language and logic class and how its about applying idea or thesis to problems and not actual math although math is the language that the ideas are based in, and she got all bitchy and went outside with unnameable transfer kid I don't enjoy, and began to talk verbal excrement about yours truly... A week ago I may have been upset or cried...or even been mad... No gentle reader I laughed. Cuz I don't give a crap! I finally get it. For years I've tried to prove to people I am logical but thaose damn feelings always got in the way! well guess what fuckers I officially don't give a shit. I rock you suck... (otters, nicole, doug(eh), and several others excluded) but really now thats all therew is.... damn.